Okay, well I’m going to write a blog on self harm. Because I’m getting so much abuse for it and it’s starting to upset me and annoy me a lot. If you’re just going to take the piss about self harming, then don’t bother reading this. I haven’t even got that many followers and I don’t even think anyone will read this. But oh well.

Yes, I have self harmed in the past and recently. But I’m trying to stop and writing a blog seems to help that because I can let out all my feelings.  Most people self harm because they feel alone/unwanted and they hate themselves. Well that’s how I use to feel and sometimes feel like that now. I just felt a lot better when I self harmed because I was letting out so much anger. It just made me feel better after I had done it. I use to do it on a regular basis but then I went counselling.  It did help me because I use to feel so upset all the time and I would hurt myself every few days. But now I can go months and months without doing it. I want to completely stop self harming, it will take time but I can do it. I need to stop bottling up my feelings and trusting people more. That way I can talk to people and tell them how I’m feeling.

I’m scared people are going to judge me after I have posted this. I hope you don’t. You just to realise when I did self harm, I hated myself. I hated how I looked, my weight, and just felt so unloved by everyone and I constantly felt alone.  I do still get them feelings often, but I’m trying not to hurt myself.

So please, before you actually say shit to me about self harming, think how I was feeling. I felt so down that I had to hurt myself to make myself feel better. I didn’t do it for attention. Believe what you want, if you think self harm is stupid then fine. But sometimes self harming does actually make you feel better at the time. It isn’t good though, people who do self harm because they’re upset do need to talk to someone. Because talking to someone does actually help.  And even if you don’t know me or you want a chat. I’m here to talk <3